Who would know that this trip would be designed to awaken the spirit within...
First week in the United States, it was rough and difficult to adjust plus meetings made it more incredibly....aweful. Everytime I looked outside, I heard the voice saying "God is in control and you don't need to worry about anything" Weird, I thought to myself I heard that before and what's now?" 2 days after arrived in Chicago I gave my buddy a call, we didn't talk long and I was so tired after hung up, I was weeping uncontrolled. Weird again, I wasn't sad, in fact, I was very happy to hear his voice. My bosses and I had a good time in Chicago and Wisconsin. One night, I studied bible with them..I thought "Dang it, Jesus, you never let me go just once, huh? Along the road these 3 years, you know me and you know what choice I would choose and I know my way is not your way..sighs..I can't escape from you at all and who would do like that like Paul did in the book of Romans....yes, I know there's a pain but sometimes it's just too much. We are bleeding and suffering for the work we are doing but guess what, not everyone could do this so..Ja, remember this that you are chosen one and do not compare the suffering with others"
Consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed
Yeah, I know what you mean..
Week 2 : In Cali
meeting and another meeting and jetlag.
I was stressed out because travelling itself has been exhausting and full of tensions. I thought..I was somehow going to scream out loud because it was too much. That day I heard the message about the presence of God, the message that inspired me to seek the whole of God, to be in the presence of God once again. God is love and love is God...I was humbled by seeking His presence. I was prepared and something in my heart changing I had no idea what that was but I was different I should have done something bad but i didn't and that surprised me for not doing it. Weird again, nothing is wrong but it's just weird. I talked to my buddy once again and I did not know before that he was going to tell me about the female in his life..you know what, I actually knew before he said it. No one told me about it.. I just knew and was prepared to hear it--weirdo--yes, I know.. and I did respond incredibly different from what I know who I am and how I would do with it. I didn't do anything that I thought I would do, besides, I was happy. Is it because I am getting older or I trust God more than before?
God is in control--true that.
I had a wonderful quality time with my best friend in Fullerton. We talked about life, I meant real life..it was just the two of us and I know God has been watching us and He is smiling. She took me to beaches and we just enjoyed the moments together. It's just amazing once you found someone you could talk about anything and everything and just being yourself, not pretending to be okay when you are not. I wish I could find words to express it but it's just..., I don't know, my heart has been blessed so much.
Still in USA, but another side in Atlanta and Thomasville. I'm thankful that God has allowed me to visit my friends. I'm glad we are still friends. It's wonderful. I also had a good time with my buddy, very brief, but worth it.
Last week in Cali, I was considering about further study.
When you are loved you want to love more. Isn't it wonderful.
I learned to be patient and I learn to love.
Whatever will be, will be.
