DTS

I'm going to do a DTS (Discipleship Training School) in Perth.

Dis-ci-ple-ship n. to turn all people into fully devoted, mature followers of Christ. I don't know if I got the right definition BUT if it is, then those who did a  DTS before me, they just made me one of them.

This is scary, honestly, I don't have money. Early this year, I invested into business and it failed.

My one and only relationship-failed terribly so far.

I got a new job-thankfully-it drains me out.

Here goes my story where the Holy Spirit leads..

Above all else, I thank you, Amy my sister who told me that I should do a DTS since last year.

I refused.

After the break-up, I thought about it but I didn't do it.

April this year, Isaiah 61 really spoke to my heart...

"The Spirit of the Sovereign LORD is on me,
because the LORD has anointed me
to proclaim good news to the poor.
He has sent me to bind up the brokenhearted,
to proclaim freedom for the captives..."

Again, I still said "no"

But after NewSong retreat last week- The Holy Spirit moved again but this time I said "YES" to the unknown future I can only trust Him and I am devoted to give all of me to Him. As I mentioned, I invested into a business but failed, my one and only relationship with my first boyfriend-failed. I just feel like I have nothing left BUT God and I realize that God is ENOUGH for me. I have prayed this week and feel led to do a DTS as I started to recognize His voice. And I am following Him.

So, here I am. 

Actually, I was scared at first to ask people for support but if it was what God had for me then He would make away. I sent out emails to my friends about what I was going to do and just over night, I was going to have a heart attack how God answered my prayers FAST! I've got 4 people financially support me to do a DTS.

Money is not a problem for God. He took my heart, a broken one and provided me what I needed. He gave me a new life. I did nothing. I just sin. Ha! Painful truth. He loves me more than anything. 

Listen carefully to the Holy Spirit. Do what He says, go where He leads.

When you have nothing to lose. Put all trust in the Lord. 

And the last thing you can do- HAVE FAITH!

Kolkata, India

If you find it's difficult to pray, ask Him again and again: Jesus, come into my heart; pray in me and with me that I may learn from you how to pray. Don't search for Jesus in far lands. He is not there. He is close to you; He is with you. Just keep the lamp burning and you will always see Him. Keep on filling the Lamp with all these little drops of love, and you will see how sweet is the Lord you love. -Mother Teresa.

Here is my heart.

You can have it all, Lord.

I am very tired of wanting things. Without you, I am nothing.

So you can make me and mold me now. Anything that you want, Lord.

I pray.

Psalms 51:10

If a man's life is what his thoughts make of it. If so, then create in me a clean (pure) heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me. (Psalms 51:10)

Joshua 1:9

"Have I not commanded you? Be strong and courageous. Do not be afraid; do not be discouraged, for the LORD your God will be with you wherever you go.”

I have been wrestling with God recently and He always wins!

The essence of which is never give up; never give in; stand up to it-fight it through. God will aid you.

"Will you be a hero, or will you be a coward?" "Will you be tough-minded or tender-minded?"

The positive thinker will not be a coward. He believes in himself, in life, in humanity, and in God. He knows his own capacity and his own ability. He is undaunted and invincible. He will draw the best from whatever comes.

God will get you through. Just have a little sincere faith to face all situations.

More Love, More Power

More Love, More Power,
More of You in my life.
More Love, More Power,
More of You in my life.
I will worship You
with all of my heart.
I will worship You
with all of my mind.
I will worship You
with all of my strength.
For You are my Lord.

My self-esteem.

I made a mistake, but everyone does. It's part of learning and growing.

"I know how you feel. It's terrible to want something so much and not find it, and it's so awkward standing around trying to strike the right air, and all the time feeling so rejected. I guess most women feel the same as you do. But you know, you have a lot going for you. It was very brave of you to go, especially feeling as vulnerable as you do. I think if you keep on trying, eventually you will meet someone. These things usually take time and effort and persistence. I really think you have a lot to offer the right person, and if you persist in looking, you will find him."

I was no longer terrified at the thought of being alone.
I was secure in my ability to take care of myself.
I was no longer afraid to be myself for fear my man would leave, because I now knew I could stand alone.

I feel warm, alive and happy and very good about myself. I feel wonderful and special. I feel like the kind of person to whom good things happen, I feel worthy of getting all the good things that life has to offer. It feels like the world is smiling at me.