Tough one

Philippians 4:8 (New King James Version)

Meditate on These Things

8 Finally, brethren, whatever things are true, whatever things are noble, whatever things are just, whatever things are pure, whatever things are lovely, whatever things are of good report, if there is any virtue and if there is anything praiseworthy—meditate on these things.

I have been pondering..this...for a couple of days. Some moments I couldn't get out of evil thoughts that leading me to have negative perpective on things. It was not bad. I am not a super woman who has super power.

Whatever things are true. Everything or anything that is true. True means consistent with fact or reality. The world is so dying and we are called to love. (I admit I do hate from time to time)

Considering these, I have to choose whatever things are noble (น่านับถือ), things are just (ยุติธรรม), things are pure (บริสุทธ์), things are lovely(น่ารัก), things are of good report (ที่ทรงคุณ)....if there is anything praiseworthy—meditate on these things.

Meditate on these things-->think about it deeply, in mind ( how can we not forget about it the next day?--that's my question)

I have to choose. There's always the fight inside of me. Some day it is a very long fight. I have to choose. Yesterday, I talked to my boss who empoweres me to live each day. He talked about the "WILL", to yearn for, a desire to do so and remember/recognize who we really are. I am empowered by grace of God.

It's never been easy for days and nights but God never leaves us. He never leaves me. He comes too slow sometimes so that I can learn about those things and know how much I NEED Him.

Too Much By Leeland
I need a place a sanctuary
A refuge for my ordinary
Finally familiar peaceful home
Untroubled safe from all this madness
Refuge for my hope and sadness
Possible to find myself alone
At home

I've found my home again
I finally find myself in You
I finally find myself in You
I feel safe again
You're the one I'm running to

I need nothing but Him. He's all I want. Can I just get Him whenever I want? No. You are created to be difficult and complicated so that you will be desperately NEEDED Him. If it's easy, why do I need God for?

That is simple tough one.