Maintaining a relationship with God...

"But the most exciting, challenging and significant relationship of all is the one you have with yourself. And if you find someone to love the you you love, well, that's just fabulous!"- Sex and the City

I think that is true but I'd like to add another relationship which is the most important for me that is the one I have with God. Lately, I felt I was far away from God and everything seemed so hard I thought I couldn't handle it. Being back at home is not what I want, going back to where I was...,that is not going to happen soon. Back to basics, contentment, heck no, I was not content at all for the last few weeks.

Monday 18th, I've dropped everything in my head, then refocused on my relationship with God. Acknowledging that God is in control, and longing for His will to be done, thanking Him all He has done for me. My spirit was lifted. I dismissed my negative thoughts, my attention to other feelings-i.e. being pessimistic. In the battle, being positive can beat negative thoughts and it will always win. It sounds simple but it requires great faith and courage.

Listen to God through reading the bible. I pray that He will help me to live by applying it to my life. Be thankful in all circumstances. Yes, I mean in everything! Now, I see the victory. God is in control and there's nothing He can't do.

It's so hard but I am content and I choose to be with God. If I have to give everything to God in order to get closer to Him. I will. Future, money, boyfriend, troubles, I will trade everything. Why be anxious about tomorrow when it's not going to solve anything. Trade in worries today for God's peace. Trust Him and not worry.... " Will I get accepted into the Uni?, will a long distance relationship work?, will I have enough money, will I get to go back? bla bla bla... Don't be afraid; have courage. Focus on today. I give God my worries, He gives me peace. Great trade. Worry, on the other hand, is the opposite of trust.

So...

Thy will be done. Amen.