Compassion DTS : Week 2

I am not a morning person. I wake up sleepily at 5.30am because some people are getting ready to go for a run before 6am morning exercise as it’s scheduled. I always have a hard time going to bed. The light and the noise are not friendly. They keep me and wake me up easily. Getting 6 hours of sleep makes it hard to focus in lectures and unable to cope or functioning well most of the time in the morning plus having bread for breakfast and sandwiches for lunch every day, my body says uh-oh. Morning choirs is at 8am-8.30am then worship and lectures until 12.30pm in order. It’s pretty rough and in rush every morning.

Shall I keep complaining? I hope not. 

I don't have a job, got no money, 3 meals are provided. I should be thankful, therefore, I am thankful and I've learned to be content whatever circumstances. (Philippians 4: 11-12)

January 18th, 2012

My classmates and I are keeping each other’s company, praying for one another. We also give hugs, at least a shoulder for another to lean on. We walk hand in hand when one can barely walk. I am independent. For me, 24/7 doing stuff with people around all the time is killing me. I have free time at 3.30-5.30pm which I can spend time with Jesus alone somewhere around the base. It’s really good to have a quiet time and I found that after spending time with God at least 2 hours, my mind, my thoughts, my emotions, everything changes. It’s drifting from whatever to God and the rest of my day went pretty well since I focused on Him. It should definitely be in the morning before starting the day. I know. I’m working on it.

We are learning about the nature and character of God this week. We are here to pursue God, to seek Him, to get to know him more and more, and to make Him known. Who is God? What does He look like? I should have known Him, right? No, I don’t. Every day, I discover Him a bit more and I don’t think I fully know about Him yet. It’s still an ongoing journey. One day, I found the revelation about being with Him no matter what circumstances, hot or cold weather, rich or poor. I was happy just to be with Him. The next day, nothing has happened, another day there’s still nothing. What’s that? One day during the  class, our guess speaker brought this up and he said. “It’s okay, just press on, keep pressing on no matter what.”

January 19th, 2012

Yesterday, I was very tired, exhausted, crumpy, lousy oh whatever words you can find it fit in. Something has happened when I got to my work duty at 1.30pm on time. I was told that I was late 10 minutes and I should be there at 1.20pm. Should I be informed in advance, shouldn’t I?  She prayed for me before start working then left. What the heck! Another revelation here after an hour processing everything. Fixing my eyes on God. Don’t take anything too personal. They are human being, just as I am. Something has been changing. It’s shifting like the light shines on and the darkness is gone. I felt light again, not to carrying the weight of whatever that just happened. Something was stirring up, I had to paint and I got my painting named

“Gazing upon God’s beauty”

Today, morning sucks as usual, morning exercise, hurry in shower, a bunch of people in the kitchen waiting and making breakfast, morning choirs, sleepy in the lectures, skipped lunch, ran to post office to get children check done for hands on compassion but it didn't work out, the bus came late, I was late for work duty, very hungry, tired, weather is hot and the sun is super strong.

I sat down and asked God to reveal Himself to me, have mercy  on me.

It’s a beautiful day, I would say when I gazed on the beauty of God.

Something has been happening here...